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Finding Your Voice (and Why You Should Do It Now)

How I Found My Voice After My Husband Passed

04/13/2023
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  • How to Find Your Voice and Why
  • Life after loss…
  • Learning to take care of myself
  • Building a new life
  • Finding my voice
  • Love looks different the second time around
  • Live your best life now
  • About the author
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by  Debbie Weiss

How to Find Your Voice and Why

Life after loss…

I will always regret that my final words to my dying husband, George, were,

“What’s your damned Wells Fargo password?” 

The son of family friends, I met George when I was seven and he was an older man of eleven. We started dating in 1981 when I was a high school senior who needed a date to the prom. A college senior majoring in engineering at U.C. Berkeley, he graciously agreed to accompany me. 

Together ever since, we spent 32 years together until he died of cancer in 2013 at age 53.  During our marriage, George and I lived an isolated existence with no kids and few friends. We spent almost all our free time together, just the two of us. A software engineer, he was happiest at his computer. A retired attorney and an introvert, what I most enjoyed was curling up with a book. Even during the week, we ate dinner together every night. 

He was my life, my one and only. Without him, I was lost.

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Debbie and George 1985

Learning to take care of myself

When George went into the hospital for what turned out to be the final time, I went through our bills that were neglected during his health crisis.  I quickly realized I didn’t have his passwords so I couldn’t pay them. He always took care of the finances. Hence my last words to him at the hospital, not knowing he would never return home and this would be our final conversation. 

George was in charge of more than just the finances during our marriage. He had a strong personality and wanted things done a certain way. His home theatre system was so complicated I needed him to watch a movie. George did the cooking and enjoyed cooking complex recipes so we often spent our weekends tracking down rare ingredients.  Our moldy shower leaked into the dining room because we could never agree on a bathroom remodel. He wanted cutting edge while I wanted simple and reasonably priced.

Once George passed, I realized I needed to learn to take care of myself. I channeled my grief into manic energy, starting with figuring out the finances. From there, I worked at making our house feel like my home, rescuing the dining room from drowning and replacing his electronics with electronics easier for me to use. 

But even with order restored, my life felt empty without George. 

Building a new life

At first, I returned to the interests I had before George got sick.  I resumed my daily walks, joined a yoga studio, planned some trips and re-enrolled in my weekly writing class. But it wasn’t enough; I knew I had to start reaching out to others or else reconcile myself to a very lonely life.

To meet new people, I joined a few organizations like my local synagogue and Rotary Club. Over time, my interests expanded.  My walks turned into hiking on the weekends with groups I found on meetup, which filled the days I missed George the most. I found a tribe of girlfriends through the yoga studio, many of them single, who invited me into their weekly drinks nights and yoga retreats. 

I also decided to travel, something George never wanted to do. With no one to go with, I went on group trips organized by my college alumni association. I discovered I missed George less in places we didn’t go together and therefore didn’t feel his absence by my side. 

Finally, my writing hobby grew to include workshops and a weekly writing group of people who became good friends. With their encouragement, I began submitting essays and seeing my work in online magazines. I even got to teach a few writing classes. Later, I decided to write a book sharing my experiences relating to creating a new life after widowhood. To fulfill my dream of becoming a published author, I enrolled in a Masters of Fine Arts (MFA) program in creative writing. I published my first book, Available As Is: A Midlife Widow’s Search for Love last September.

how to find your voice, Available As Is by debbie weiss

Finding my voice

George made most of the decisions during our marriage from where we lived to how we spent our time. Perhaps this was because George was four years my senior and I was so young when we got together. Or maybe it was because he was so strong-willed.  Happy to be enveloped in a loving relationship, I gave little thought to what I might be missing. Later, my passivity became a habit, not wanting to cause disagreement or take time away from “us.” So I didn’t push for the things that I enjoyed, like lingering in cafes or going to the beach. 

After being on my own, I would never again relinquish my agency. I learned the hard way how important it is to understand the finances, know how to handle the home repairs, etc. And I found joy in pursuing my own interests. Were I still married, I never would have hiked on the weekends or taken my writing so seriously. But finding my voice saved me during many bad times during the years I spent alone.

Love looks different the second time around

I started dating fourteen months after losing George at age 50. So much was different from when I last dated in 1980 as a high school junior. Not only was chivalry dead, but it seemed that basic courtesy was gone as well. I experienced men making last minute requests to meet and even more last minute cancellations, refusals to meet halfway, and pushy requests to become physical.

After five years and almost giving up hope, I found my second love online. My first date with Randal lasted twelve hours, starting with a drive down the coastline and ending with dinner at a restaurant on the water. I knew he was the one when he told me he read everything I wrote in my profile to learn more about me.

Soon after we started dating, I left for a three week group tour through Eastern Europe I planned before we met. But he was waiting for me when I got back, and he loved that I had my own interests.

This May marks five years together. Two years ago, we moved to a new home by the water. It was a place I loved and we decided on together. I sold the house of 27 years where I lived with George, finally getting rid of the last of his cookbooks and other things that no longer fit. I lived too long in the shadow of his memory.

Debbie Weiss
Debbie and Randal 2022

Live your best life now

I will always love and miss my George. However, these past five years were the happiest of my life. This time, Randal and I both have the passwords and if we disagree, I’m often the final say. But my best advice is to start finding your voice now. Don’t wait. Live authentically, cultivate your own interests and find your joy. Don’t be afraid to step outside your comfort zone. Know that your thoughts and feelings matter. Most importantly, get to know yourself without judgement. You don’t need a catastrophic loss to show you how finite this life can be. 

 

About the author

 Debbie WeissDebbie Weiss is a former lawyer and the author of Available As Is: A Midlife Widow’s Search for Love.  Read more about it on debbieweissauthor.com. Her writing has been published in The New York Times “Modern Love” column, Huff Post, Woman’s Day, and Reader’s Digest among other publications. A longtime resident of the California Bay Area, she lives in Benicia, California.

 

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